ch-ch-cha-changes.

so much has changed since the last time i posted.....

but the biggest thing is i lost a best friend. like ive said before i dont trust ANYONE. this is why... long story short, they are out of my life and i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

now im just trying to focus on school but thats extremely hard when you have no motivation whatsoever.

i dont really have anyone but my parents to tell me that i can do it and to keep pushing and think about the end result: first one to graduate from college in my family..

im not sure if i really need that or not but right now i just dont ever want to go to class, do hw, study, anything. im sure a lot of students feel the same way i do though..




well aside from school my job is amazing!  i loveeeee my managers and co-workers. they are amazing women and make me feel like im right at home everytime. its the best feeling to actually look forward to going to work.. yet working with kids all the time gets to me.


i talked about this guy before as one of my best friends. he is amazing in every way.. well i finally feel like i can tell him everything and not worry about what he will think. its weird to be able to do that with someone but it feels so good. it makes me happy


ive realized living with roommates is hard, but i think im doing pretty good so far. we all get on each others nerves in one way or another but at the end of the day i love them and glad i have them there all the time.  living on my own has been hard but whenever i am homesick, i call my mommy and she makes everything better (:

speaking of my mom, she is absolutely amazing. i really dont know how shes dealed with me for 19 years........ she is my best friend, hands down. i wouldnt be able to get through anything without her. she is my wall, she is my shoulder to cry on, she is my conscious.  i dont know what i would do if she wasnt in my life.


okay so i guess this is a random one but its whatever. random is good. okay well bye.